One Day at a Time

    It has been a year and a half since my husband, Charlie, went home with Jesus and I still miss him daily. I ask my Father in heaven, Abba, to get me through each day and He does, even though I don't feel Him, but I know He is there catching each tear and grieving with me. At the same time, Charlie is spending time with Jesus, Abba, Moses and all the saints he has the privilege to be with each day. These thoughts of the beauty, the loving people he's with for all eternity makes me smile, as well as the fact that I'll be with him again for all eternity some day. 

    I am now living with my son and his family as I could no longer live alone in the apartment Charlie and I briefly shared. The crime in the neighborhood was indescribable, and I was afraid to leave the apt. At the same time my health began going downhill due to the chronic pain issues and unbearable grief I was suffering. God bless them, they made room for me and I am safe and no longer alone. 

    Since moving in with them, I have been diagnosed with macular degeneration and am having a hip replacement in a few weeks. I did not mean to be such a burden. At the same time, if Charlie was still here he would be utterly lost during my time in rehabilitation after surgery. Alzheimer's disease is cruel and cares not whom it effects. I miss him terribly, and at the same time I'm relieved he doesn't have to suffer the awful things that go with end stage Alzheimer's. He is with our Abba, young again, healed and full of joy. When you surrender and accept Jesus, our Christ, as Lord and Savior we can all experience these things. I am so looking forward to the day I will experience what Charlie is now living for all eternity.

    Abba is so good. He is always with us no matter what we are going through, forgiving when we mess up and have to ask for forgiveness; Lord knows I do that a lot lately. The anxiousness I am experiencing facing surgery somedays is overwhelming. Then I remember what Paul said, "Be anxious for nothing, but pray about everything..." Easier said than done some days, but I'm trying. I have no idea how I'd get through my days without Abba. As the song says by Lauren Dagle, I'd fall off the edge. 

    I suppose I am trying to say that no matter what we go through, Abba is always with us to help us, and at times Jesus picks us up and carries us through everything.